My true feeling

The big smile...
is it truly from the bottom of my heart?
No, it is a fake smile
I'm pretending to be optimistic
but actually the worst thing that might happen keep on playing in my mind
I'm pretending depress is thousand miles away from me
but actually I feel very stress inside
I'm pretending to ignore how people are judging me
but actually I need your encouragement and support
I'm pretending the pass have been forgotten
but actually everything have been deeply engraved inside my heart
I'm pretending to be happy with my current life
but actually I feel that something is missing in life

This blog itself create a sad atmosphere.
Hope the colourful words will help to reduce the gray mood