虽然还是会思念
但是我已学会把思念往肚里吞
不找任何人倾诉
也不会作多余的联系
去奢望“无味”的反应
虽然好想可以分享
但有好朋友在
我想那就已经足够了
我不需要任何人
只要好朋友
要知音
和我亲爱的家人

乐观

自我催眠
自我麻醉

“你已成为过去
希望在明天”

My true feeling

The big smile...
is it truly from the bottom of my heart?
No, it is a fake smile
I'm pretending to be optimistic
but actually the worst thing that might happen keep on playing in my mind
I'm pretending depress is thousand miles away from me
but actually I feel very stress inside
I'm pretending to ignore how people are judging me
but actually I need your encouragement and support
I'm pretending the pass have been forgotten
but actually everything have been deeply engraved inside my heart
I'm pretending to be happy with my current life
but actually I feel that something is missing in life

This blog itself create a sad atmosphere.
Hope the colourful words will help to reduce the gray mood

小丑

看上去我像个傻婆，失尽仪态的疯狂大笑，
事实上，我心里超难过，我只不过是个化着浓妆的小丑
一直想要掩饰...掩饰.......................思念

Keep me Dreaming

How I wish i could always stay in my dream.

How I wish the theory in the movie "Inception" can apply in the real world too.

In my dream, I can stay happier

In my dream, nobody is leaving me

In my dream, I will not be lonely

In my dream, everything will have a happy ending

In my dream... In my dream... In my dream...

How I wish I could always stay in my dream

and never wake up

The real world is SXXK!!

Give me peace please!! i want a peaceful life!

I'm really tired and sick of everything!

Could you all just keep your mouths shut!

Don't ever try to challenge my patient!

I do not hope to be cruel!

Since you all make the situation worst

Then you have to leave!

This is not the ending that I wish it to happen in this way!

Stay

quietly and peacefully,

or else

LEAVE!!

想念

思念

挂念

memories are killing me...

The secret

My Job, My Career.

The message: IF THIS IS YOUR WORK,

I HAVE BAD NEWS FOR YOU

Bon Odori in Penang

少了一个人

模糊

以往在脑海里清晰的脸孔
现在已经开始变模糊
历历在目的往事
一件一件在脑海消失
是我记忆力变差吗？
只需短暂的时间就可冲淡记忆
还是痛苦逼迫我得忘了它
因为它不应该让我常回味、常挂念...

My BABIES~

My properties, My babies =)

Will take good care of the new born baby (17th June 2010).
Welcome to the family, 8447 =D

483 In Memory

Back to Serdang for few days but this time, I'm not going to stay in 483. Walked in the taman, sighted 483 from far, warmth filled my heart. The house look so familiar to me but the people and everything inside the house already different. Feeling weird cause I did not and dare not step into 483 which is once known as "my house". I miss every party that was organized in 483, I miss the time we study hard and also "play hard" in there, I miss every corner of the house which is once filled with our laughter, I miss my pets, Fan Fan and friends

and I miss my ex-housematesss!

What's Up

Like this oldie song. Choose to upload this song without its MV because the singer look ermm.. like if you view it in mid night, you will get shock. lol

Waiting...

I'm waiting waiting and waiting. Really hate this kind of feeling cause I do not have much patient. The train I'm taking for 3 years has dropped me back to the origin, back to this familiar station. I'm now eagerly hoping for the next train to come faster to fetch me to my next destination.

But seem like this train move really slow, till now, I'm still lost, I don't know which place is my destiny, I'm still waiting..Waiting for an answer from you, GOD. Waiting for you to give me direction..

Astar Gang

Finally we have our first Alor Star coursemates "gathering" in our hometown :D

My family

i love flower, i love green grass and i love grandma

Was going to Penang, my grandma's house yesterday. The place that I like most is grandma's garden. Grandma likes flowers, she likes gardening, so her garden used to have more than ten species of flowers. But now, there are only few species left due to her stamina is getting weaker.

花的三个阶段：一枝面临凋谢，一枝灿烂开放着，一枝则含苞待放

I'm worry about grandma, no one can actually take care of her, NO ONE!! Did those uncles know how is grandma's health condition now? Concerning through phone calls do not give any help, she needs you all by her side. Feel sad for grandma.

I love her and I really hope she can stay healthy always.